So I'm going to admit that I'm in a funk. I'm not feeling up to par, my kids have had strange fevers and have needed extra hugs, stories, and patience, and my laundry is baskets deep in my basement.
The part I hate the most though is when I feel like I have absolutely no ambition or push to get things done. Its a malaise that doesn't care if the laundry gets folded or if dinner gets cooked. Its the quintessential case of the "blahs".
Why is it that when you're stuck in these moods its even harder to pray? I always feel as if my "why bother" attitude spills over into my prayer life just when I need some supernatural support. And its even tougher when you're a mom, responsible for the tone, schedule, and harmony of your home. You just can't let the funk overtake how you care about your kids, or the rhythms of their day, or your husbands dinner and lunch for the next day. But at the same time all I want to do is wallow a little bit.
So my compromise is that I try my best with the kids, get a load or two of laundry done, and then back off on the extras that I usually can get into my day to free up a little wallow time. And of course try not to feel guilty for the myriad of things I could be getting done. Fortunately I someone snap out of it within a few days of lazy wallowing, and I'm praying I will be able to this time too. My small, feeble, prayers anyway. Confession over.