Life with a newborn-random thoughts.

People stay up all night for fun??!!?


First of all, lets just establish that staying up all night is not fun. My problem may be that no alcohol was involved in my couple of sleepless nights over the last couple days. There may be something to that...


This beautiful newborn stuff can be rough. So far he's a dream baby during the day and will sleep, nurse, poop without so much as a small cry. Then 9 pm hits and all he wants to do is cry in burpy agony. For about 6-8 hours. 


The thing is I'm terrible on small amounts of sleep. I become a huge emotional mess that hardly can get her own children a breakfast of cold cereal. I'm fearing giving this up-all-night stuff the name of "colic". I've had two colic-y babies who for about 6-8 weeks gave me very little sleep at night. Also with those two babies I had pretty brutal postpartum depression. So I'm scared of no sleep+feeling awful+trying to take care of 3 other babies and the newborn! I'm trying to take it one day at a time and not to imagine weeks of sleeplessness. But sometimes I imagine it and go cry in a hot bath. 


However(!), he's remarkably beautiful and changing already! Someone stop him! His face is growing chubby, he's already longer, and is moving and looking around more. He's so little and cuddly. I can't believe how much I forget about this beautiful teeny tiny stage! I had a teeny tiny newborn only two years ago, and yet its still such a new and exciting feeling to just hold a little bundle. 


And confession: I hate co-sleeping. How do people do it throughout toddlerhood? My guess is only through exhaustion. Max isn't even two weeks old and I'm already crossing my fingers this sleep thing can get better and I can have more than 6 inches of my bed! Ridiculous. 


Well, those are some random thoughts for the day. I'm off to cuddle and nurse the little munchkin and pray I'll get a couple hours sleep tonight!